Taco night

I'm so blessed
To have two men in my life
That love me
My father, even if his ways are odd
And my significant, even if our love is strange.

My fear is that I'll disappoint them both.
If they respect me half as much as I respect them we will be in good shape.

My fear is that I can't do "taco night"
If freedom was a drug, I'd be an addict
I don't have restrictions, but I do have discipline
I'm not naive but I have trust

My fear is that after I figure out how to function as a motherless daughter
I will have to face becoming a motherless mother

And like I said, I don't do taco night