Frustrated

I'm frustrated with modeling. Maybe I'm just bored, it has always been a thing, a weird system. That payed gigs are always more fun, and the photographers that pay are way more talented than the ones who don't. So what if I really want to work with a photographer. Who pays then? Me? That's the ultimate question. It has always been a deal where the model gets paid, BUT I think there is a rise in artistic models which means models are modeling for more than portfolio pictures. (I really can't stand basic portfolio shots and submissions) I don't necessarily want to be a model for the industry, but I do want to do larger shoots. I.e. more money in the budget to make astonishing photos with. But I don't feel like I should pay a photographer in most cases. I constantly hear photographers who want money and then turn around and use those photos as advertisement, or magazine/vogue submissions, or sell the photos. And I feel that is wrong! I'm so confused with the whole thing it makes me sick. And I am tired of creeps. And in tired of collaborating with a photographer just to do ALL of the artistic work myself. (The wardrobe the idea the make up the setting AND the editing) because most of the time I get the photos back and notice that they are poorly edited. So I edit them. Some photographers are cool with this, some are not. The ones who are not I determine are a loss and dump their photos I. The trash because I can not use them, and they could've been great. Here's the thing I don't want to be a photographer, I use photography as one of many outlets in my art but I do not want to deal with models. Or the "system" that everyone thinks they know. And besides that I can not stand shooting models because of their ego or their "training" it usually is wrong, and you spend most of your time telling the model to relax. So I guess I'll just shoot my boyfriend, myself, and my friends. Which kills me as an Aquarius but so be it. And I'm not sure if u want to model on "shoots" any more. Minus a few people I just a LOVE being around. And I consider extremely talented. It's just not worth the bs. Or the ego vomit anymore.

Perfect

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=621711474506457&set=a.251285321549076.69658.174957762515166&type=1

Finally!

I have a picture worthy of the caption "why you mad tho?"

My first thought..."your butt again!? Jeez charley"

And then I was like "Of course your butt again!"

"While we are talking about my crack, how about all you haters say hi to that!"

Ok I'm done and very tired.


New vlog soon! Charley > Quinn > Wayne

We silly

We so silly, it's even makin us sick!