Accept Me

Defining yourself is the hardest thing

Finding someone who can accept you and the things you do

makes me feel like I have to be able to correctly define myself

make a "warning" label for myself

I can feel peoples pain, insecurity, wants, needs, etc.

But I feel my own?

Am I a flirt? maybe

Do I crave attention? Moderately

Do I need validation? Definitely

Do I need reassurance? Positively

Do I get these things from one source? absolutely not

I have a gift, and I use it

but understand, in the end

I am yours

I am yours

I am yours

they can't have me, but they still have a purpose.

retaliation

I don't believe in instant retaliation.

Not with matters of the heart. 

Anything that is said, or implied

Will most likely tear you apart.

Others are mirrors of ourselves

it's hard to accept, and hard to understand

until we can learn to be and let be

we will not be able to stand.... hand in hand

How can we stop hurting each other

can it really just be the peace within?

if we eliminate expectations 

a life of freedom will ultimately begin. 

But how do you love with out expecting love in return?

Romance is built, but is the magic number 2?

without love, would the world still turn?

without love, do i really know you?

defining the undefiable

you can't turn your back on this

but is this love reliable? 

only enchanted by a kiss

Maybe all of life is a phase

it's not your job to tell me

maybe I live in a haze

Just don't spoil my naivety 

If I retaliate, please understand

and know I hear you;

I'm not one to put my head in the sand

or ignore slander you spew 

If I could, I would take your hand

and guide you through. 

But for now, I'll stand by, and hurt                    Like you

                                                                           For you

                                                                           With you

                                                                          Because of you.

Volatile

I just want to turn the lights off in these Volatile times. 

http://thinkingwoman1.wordpress.com/2009/03/11/the-difference-between-volatile-and-abusive-relationships/

I have been in 2 volatile relationships. Even though those were not healthy(borderline abusive), a volatile relationship can be very healthy. The reason these relationships were so volatile, was because of my need to argue. Not that I "wanted" to argue, so much, as I just couldn't help it. 

I have become less "aggressive" since my last break up, and as a direct result of that, more involved in my own thoughts and life. Which gives me less time to worry about minor conflicts. I am liking it. It is much easier. 

I'm not saying I will never argue again, because there always has to be a balance. 

But next time I find myself in an argument... I'm going to seek the love out in it. 

where have I been?

pre-occupied

found this and realized I haven't blogged in a few days, So I am sharing this via blog.

http://indigoshakti.tumblr.com/post/34856250406/sexuality-reclaiming-the-erotic-spiritual-sex-beyond

Be Change

stumbled across this.

<3

as our eggshells crack and shatter, we open ourselves.....

http://www.wordriot.org/template.php?ID=238

"So I take mirrors and leave reflections. I allow the residents to reflect on their actions toward each other. I invade the predictability of someone else's life, simply because I can. Why not?"

source

just because time moves, doesn't mean we move with it

everything takes time. but you don't understand

why do you make me the source of your pain

or is it just that I am the receiver?

easy to lash out at, easy to blame

easy to love? means I'm easy to hate

I don't understand how you can believe

only what you are able to perceive

do you know how to listen? can you really feel anything?

or is it only pain that you identify with

the whipping boy of the world

your world

revolving around all of your insecure delusions

your pain is... painfull

your only way out? to bring me down

your one of the many, that only knows how to spit venom

and watch the world crumble from your poison

you have the ability to love, but it is soot covered

it has no shine

like a cheap piece of plastic

I never called it mine

I am not the source of your pain, wake up

please

I would not have spent so long trying to help you, work through everything with you

If I only intended on hurting you.

Have you lost your awareness?

You can not respect others, simply because you have no respect for yourself

YOU made yourself an underdog, it was your will, your wish

so you have no right to bitch about it

Stop pretending the entire world was made to be at war with you

it's disgusting to watch

because I realize now, that I have always been unable to help you

you simply can not see

I am your friend, but your ego is my enemy

how can i make you see the difference?



http://youtu.be/anJ8Knxoazc

This..

Is my "I love you" face

Happy new year! 2013!