prodigy

always a prodigy?
no not always.
Viewed as a leader, but always a prodigy, yeah

a second coming, reckoning of the age
age
my age? I'm ancient, that is why....
I AM NOT A FUCKING PRODIGY

suck

my

dick

I am here to defy authority, but what if I am the authority 0_o
this is my private life

Private, but I lust to share. No secrets.
My mind is everywhere, and one singular place, all at once.
it's a web, and our minds our a map
of the world
get it?
What you do, when you do, how you do, where you do
it all matters, to someone, somewhere, sometime.
Live fast, die young.
I wanna grow old, why the hell not?

Experience more, learn more, live more.
cocoon.
relax..
don't do it..

I am not a prodigy, but I have a lot to learn.
I have something to do.
not for me
and not for you
this... these words are shit, shit. shit.
I am not making sense, i have no wish to. this was started yesterday, when i couldn't finish it. and now as i try I am in a completely different headspace. I need to relax
unwind
where is my head at?
you know what they say, low end of high.
but it's worth it.

Can you?

Dig it?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xwavf40N4pk

never ever


ever never

can't even imagine

Disease

I must admit I like the attention.

the virus, disease 

I seem to crave your affection

to satisfy a need

I wonder, what is your intention?

I breathe in the ice from heartbreak,

a single breath will make your whole body shake

the sharp frozen shards of harmful words, and useless notions

I like to believe I am immune to these potions

trauma, the feeling, I know it well
I key into words, listen and i will tell
phrases, like fire that burns
intent, and the world that turns

"You see it's easy to fall, but staying is the hard part"
I am falling now, his voice holds my reflection
it's my history and my only obsession
How long until I hit the ground?
the breaking of my bones, the only sound.

You say you'll catch me, we'll see
but I wouldn't blame you if you decided to flee
We are human, after all
the pleasure is too great, so watch me fall.

this is reality.

http://www.youtube.com/my_videos_edit?ns=1&feature=vm-privacy&video_id=i0z1STDOlrM

Puzzle

If my heart was one
You'd be the only one who could....
Take it apart AND put it back together correctly

old findings

i am still sick today, so i am home trying to fight off the yuck.

So I found this in an old sketchbook that I am getting ready to throw away.

"Without you.... the ground thaws, 
                            the rain falls, 
                            the grass grows.
Without you...... the seeds root, 

                            the flowers bloom, 

                             the children play.

                            The stars gleam, 

                            the poets dream, 

                            the eagles fly, 

                            without you.
                             The earth turns, 

                             the sun burns, 

                             but I die, 

                         without you."

it is from Rent, the movie. <3

wounds

Wounds hurt, even while they are healing.


                                                    then they become scars, and even scars hurt on rainy days.

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8rqqFMLQmLxupN_7-Y_E1kPL3HxninCAIuoh9R8eKRxAcJJvBwrpC9DFb21bGkiujQfyywrkZXEn-rzfChdj7YBXqVtl9rFbbkltyOU9F8s18rVAtBl2YiTYplKLfKGEhOiN0JFbtzik/s1600/carry+a+lot+of+scars.jpg


I am not alone in my period of mending
and it is none of your business, how these days I am spending.

Locked in

To fading memories

spin,

head heels

head heels

it doesn't end, I'm stuck on repeat

this is what we call tumblin'

tumblin, stumblin, picking up the broken pieces of our fragile minds

we are all rotten eggs

and all the kings horses, and all the kings men......

can't do what you refuse to do for yourself


get yourself together